I’m a 60 year old woman who decided in December 2011 to eliminate alcohol from my life.
I’ve been inspired by many through an online forum and sober blogs.
If my journey to a better life can serve as inspiration to someone else, I would be remiss in not sharing.
How it was
For many years, alcohol in some form was a part of my daily routine.
I worked, I went home, I poured a drink or a glass of wine. I didn’t guzzle but I never stopped at one. One glass at a time, I maintained a solid evening buzz. Every once in a while I went a little overboard and didn’t remember the next morning all I’d said or done the night before. Typically, I got things done while carrying around a glass until it was time to go to bed, and then I passed out. Rarely, I used bad judgment away from home and drove when I shouldn’t have. From an outsider’s view, I didn’t get in “trouble” due to drinking.
Normal for me was buzzed in the evening. I drank to get normal, as if it was a daily nutrient. It gave me my second wind. I looked forward to it. I needed it.
And I hated that I needed it.
My husband and I decided many times, separately and together, that we needed to stop. His drinking had grown to match or exceed mine. We were both using it to avoid dealing with life’s uncomfortable realities. And that wasn’t working out very well. Finally, he said he was quitting, and he did. I’d seen it before so I gave it a few days and when I realized he was serious, I followed suit. The last of the wine in the house was poured down the drain on December 25, 2011.
How it is now
Life can be hard, but I’m free. My life is my own, uncontrolled by thoughts of drinking. I’m learning something new every day. I’m ready to be fully present for whatever comes. We have a marriage that’s ready for the work that needs to be done to enjoy the next phase. Unbuzzed, finally.
You can contact me through the form below. Is my story your story? Do you need motivation to keep going? Let me know!
My name is Ginny, and I’m an alcoholic.